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Friday, 6 August 2010
I have gained a pound since Wednesday. A pound in 2 days is really not good. I need it to go the other way. I don't know what to do. I knew I was going to have gained today, but it doesn't make it any easier to cope with. I am hoping that if I eat as little as possible today then I will have reversed at least some of it by tomorrow, but it doesn't look like my 2lbs weight loss this week is going to happen as I am clearly not going to lose a pound and a half in 2 days, and after gaining last week that is not good - I wanted to lose more than 2lb to get back on track. I go on holiday in 2 weeks today, and I have an absolute minimum of 5lbs to lose in that time - that is not good. Although I don't know why I bother really. Even if I lose 5lbs, I will still look enormous, and I still won't be able to fit into any of my clothes. At least packing will be easy - I will just take the 4 items of clothing that fit me. I am too fat to get into anything else. I feel shit.
I am a 24 year old female, currently embroiled in the Mental Health minefield. My diagnonsense is Borderline Personality Disorder, and I also have problems with Depression, Anxiety and disordered eating. Bippidee is my nickname for BPD, as stolen from the fantastic mentalnurse.
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