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Monday, 2 August 2010
Girl Interrupted was on TV earlier. That is one of my favourite films. The book is better, but I still love the film. I have it on DVD, but when films I like come on TV I always want to watch them regardless of whether I have them on DVD, or how many times I have seen them. There was something inside me telling me that it possibly wasn't a great idea as I am not feeling too good, but I couldn't resist putting it on. I watched the first 20 minutes or so, and then I had to turn it off as I was getting too upset. I don't know why really - I have seen it so many times, but when I am not feeling good I seem to be really vulnerale, and things that are upsetting, or a bit too close to home etc just make me really anxious and upset. I always used to think that I didn't find people or books or films or anything triggering, but I have realised that I do actually, quite a lot. My head feels a bit all over the place today.
I am a 24 year old female, currently embroiled in the Mental Health minefield. My diagnonsense is Borderline Personality Disorder, and I also have problems with Depression, Anxiety and disordered eating. Bippidee is my nickname for BPD, as stolen from the fantastic mentalnurse.
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