I am feeling a bit crap. Last week I lost 3lbs - this week I gained nearly 1lb. That means that to keep on with my goal of losing 2lbs a week, this coming week I need to lose 4lbs, to make up for not losing anything this week, and gaining back 1lb of what I had lost the previous week, and I don't think I can do that. I am also pissed off, because I was looking back at my weight, and I weigh exactly the same as I did on 1st July, and I so badly wanted to lose. I just feel so horrible about myself. I feel completely disgusting. I hate my body so much.
The Tempest is finished now - we had the last performance last night. The performance Friday night was a nightmare - it started raining during the first half, but all the audience wanted to stay so we just had to keep going, but the rain was getting heavier and heavier, and in the end it was just ridiculous, so we had to go inside to do Act 5, which was pretty crazy as there was very little space. Last night was so much better - the weather was beautiful, and it was a really lovely setting, and it was the biggest audience too. Was nice to do a performance without getting wet! Although I am covered in bites from the last couple of days, which isn't so good.
My friend went home yesterday. Her time here went quite quickly - I guess there were only 2 whole days, and then I was out a fair bit because of The Tempest etc. On Friday we stayed up talking until about 6am - T had brought me home after the performance, and it was about 3 before he left, and then we had lots of talking to do, so it was very late when we got to sleep, which wasn't so great Saturday morning when we had to get up to take her to the airport. It was nice to see her, but now she has gone I really need to get back into my eating routine to make sure that I lose weight this week.
I am seeing L tomorrow, and I have dance classes Tuesday and Thursday, and a singing lesson Thursday too, so I am quite busy again this week, although I think Wednesday is completely free. And I am not doing anything today. I will watch the Athletics tonight. Bit gutted that I have missed virtually all of it because I have been out at performances etc. I love watching Athletics. Ah well, never mind.
Will I make it through?
1 week ago