Still not great

Still feeling crap. I have been sleeping badly the last week or two, which isn't helping. Had gained a bit of weight again today - another 0.2 of a pound. The trouble is with little 0.2 of a pound, is that they sound like nothing, and yet they add up. I really need the number to go down again tomorrow. My sister is here again. I can hear her downstairs. I don't know why she is always coming over. My mum isn't even here, so what on earth is the point? And then she always gets food for the children and leaves absolutely everything out, so the kitchen looks like a bombsite. I haven't even gone downstairs - if she calls later I will just say I didn't realise she was here or something. My mood is still really low and I am not managing to get anything done or concentrate on anything. I am really missing L - I still have no idea when she will be back.