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Tuesday, 14 September 2010
I feel like shit. I am absolutely exhausted. My sleep is just getting worse and worse. Last night I was really tired at 1am, which was great because I thought I would be able to get an early night for me. I was asleep by about half 1, but only slept for an hour, and then woke up and was completely wide awake. I sat up for a while, then tried to go back to sleep. No luck. I spent hours and hours trying to go back to sleep. In the end I managed to at about 9:30 this morning and slept until 2. I woke up just feeling totally shattered. I have had about 5 and a half hours sleep, so I shouldn't be as exhausted as I am, but it was all so broken up, and I spent so many hours just lying in bed not being able to sleep, and I now feel really rough. I also have big bags and black circles under my eyes, which obviously looks highly unattractive, and I have to have my photo taken tonight for my programme photo for Carousel.
I am a 24 year old female, currently embroiled in the Mental Health minefield. My diagnonsense is Borderline Personality Disorder, and I also have problems with Depression, Anxiety and disordered eating. Bippidee is my nickname for BPD, as stolen from the fantastic mentalnurse.
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