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Sunday, 19 September 2010
I very, very rarely cry at films, TV programmes, books etc. I just don't. I never have done really. Very occasionally I will, but it really is very occasional - I can watch a film and everyone else in the cinema be in floods of tears, and I'm just not. Sometimes if I find something very sad then my eyes prick a bit, but I don't actually cry. It is so rare that any actual tears come out, that I can't remember the last time. So why on earth did I end up sobbing hysterically when watching Charlotte's Web on TV earlier?! I had seen it was on and though oh I always I liked that book, not seen this film version, I will watch that. I ended up this inconsolable mess, bawling my eyes out. For at least 15 minutes. Probably more. I actually felt completely devastated by it. I was still crying by the end, which is supposed to be happy. What is wrong with me?! I can sit through films about loads of people dying, terribly sad things happening, tragedies, and yet the death of a spider sends me into a complete state. Something is wrong there...
I am a 24 year old female, currently embroiled in the Mental Health minefield. My diagnonsense is Borderline Personality Disorder, and I also have problems with Depression, Anxiety and disordered eating. Bippidee is my nickname for BPD, as stolen from the fantastic mentalnurse.
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