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Saturday 9 January 2010

Sleep

I am getting really pissed off with my sleep. Or rather my inability to sleep at a reasonable time. The last 2 nights, it has been after 6:30am when I have finally got to sleep. I don't know why I can't sleep earlier - I can be completely exhausted and unable to keep my eyes open, but yet I just cannot get to sleep. Cue lots of stress and bad thoughts. I am spending the nights alternating between trying to sleep, and trying to read or do something else until my eyes get to the point where they won't stay open again, at which point I attempt to sleep again, and so it goes on.

I had a really bizarre dream last night. I had taken an overdose and been taken to hospital, and was unconscious, and when I woke up again I asked a nurse what day it was, and she told me, but it was 3 years later, and I had been unconscious for 3 years. So everyone else was 3 years further on in their lives, but to me it still felt like the same time it had when I had taken the overdose, so it was all very confusing. I left the hospital, and when I was at home I went to log onto Facebook to see what people had been up to in the last 3 years. But Facebook had shut down - it had been sued or something. It was all very weird!

2 comments:

  1. OK, this really is weird, because it sounds like our sleeping patterns are nigh on identical. No xsleep throughout the night - check. Falling asleep finally circa 6.30am (usually 7.30am in my case, but close enough) - check. Dreams (nightmares?) of suicide where one is incapacitated long-term - check.

    I sware to God. How weird! It's uncanny. How horribly - yet comfortingly (maybe?) - bizarre. x

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  2. That is very odd! My time of getting to sleep varies - sometimes it is much better than this, like 2am, but as my mood gets worse my sleeping tends to get worse, and unfortunately it seems to be at the getting to sleep between 6 and 7 am mark at the moment. Do you sleep well when you finally get to sleep? Once I get to sleep then I generally sleep fairly solidly during the day, but even if I have to get up when I haven't had much sleep, and so should get to sleep better the next night, I just don't.

    Write some updates or something so I have something to read tonight! x

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