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Monday, 17 May 2010
Weight and Shopping
I am in a good mood. My weight was down 2lbs today :D That is exciting. I don't give a shit if it is water weight gone or something, the number is down and that is all that matters. I have bought 2 bags to celebrate. I seem to be in a bit of a spending phase at the moment. I am usually very tight with money, and I have just spent £60 on bags and bought 3 CDs and a DVD. And a book. I like buying things. I want to buy more but I can't buy clothes until I lose weight and I am running out of other ideas. That is of course the advantage of bags. You don't have to try them on or worry about them not fitting. Which is excellent. I want my weight to go down again tomorrow. I am in a determined mood. Excellent. Although I do have ballet tonight, which means I will eat more because dancing makes me hungry. So that is a bit of a problem. I will have to eat something before I go because I haven't eaten yet today and I might pass out or something if I try to dance without eating first. But then I will have to eat when I get home. So that means eating twice. So my weight probably won't go down tomorrow, which will be very disappointing. As long as it doesn't go up it will be ok. Yes. Then down the next day. I like losing weight. It makes things feel better.
I am a 24 year old female, currently embroiled in the Mental Health minefield. My diagnonsense is Borderline Personality Disorder, and I also have problems with Depression, Anxiety and disordered eating. Bippidee is my nickname for BPD, as stolen from the fantastic mentalnurse.
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