I am so annoyed and frustrated with myself. It is quarter past 4, and I felt so hungry and weak that I had to eat something, so I just had a slice of bread and peanut butter. I feel so pathetic for doing that when I wasn't going to eat until dinner. We have no bloody lettuce so I can't even have salad for dinner, I will have to have a 'proper' meal. I had lost weight today and I need that to keep happening, and now I am scared I will end up gaining tomorrow. I just feel so useless.
I feel like I have eaten too much today. As I suspected earlier, I had to have a 'proper' meal due to the lack of salad, and I was also quite hungry despite the bread. So I had pasta and now I just feel like I have eaten way too much today. I suppose I did dance for an hour, which will hopefully have compensated somewhat, but it still feels too much. And even more annoyingly, I am still bloody hungry.
Christmas love to you all
3 weeks ago