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Thursday 11 March 2010

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I am really struggling. I don't really know why. I feel very emotional. Very tired all the time. I had the one night where I got to sleep at 1, but I still didn't sleep well, then the next night I got to sleep about half 4 and again slept badly, then last night was quite disturbed again. So lack of sleep probably isn't helping. My weight is getting me down enormously. I have been trying to be careful with what I have been eating, and am certainly nowhere near 2000kcal a day, but anything I manage to lose on a day when I really restrict goes straight back on if I actually eat. Feeling very suicidal. Hate myself. Feel like I am a disgusting, repulsive person, both physically and inside.

2 comments:

  1. Sorry to hear you're still not sleeping properly. I'm sleeping far too much so I'll try and chuck some of my extra in your direction!

    ((hugs))

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  2. Thanks. Sometimes I sleep too much too, but even then I end up waking up exhausted. I don't remember the last time I woke up and felt awake and not tired.

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