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Monday, 29 March 2010
Just spoke to L (had sent her an email last night asking if she could call me today). Finally got to sleep around half 7/8 I think so have had about 4 hours. She doesn't want me to go back to sleep so that I am able to sleep tonight. She wants me to do something physical (I don't mean exercsise, but something that isn't laying in bed) that I can get into that will take at least an hour, and said she will ring back about half 3. I can't think of anything. I don't want to be awake. The only things I can think of doing involve hurting myself and I don't think that is what she was thinking of. I feel really unsafe. Now I am awake I keep thinking that I have about 5 hours before anyone will be home and I could overdose. I can't cope.
I am a 24 year old female, currently embroiled in the Mental Health minefield. My diagnonsense is Borderline Personality Disorder, and I also have problems with Depression, Anxiety and disordered eating. Bippidee is my nickname for BPD, as stolen from the fantastic mentalnurse.
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