I am going to try and get to sleep. It is about 5 hours earlier than I usually manage to sleep, but I can't cope with being awake anymore today, I feel too awful, and I don't think I will be able to keep myself safe if I stay awake. Really struggling so much, I just don't know what to do with myself.
Edit 2am - I am awake. I slept for about an hour and then woke up and can't get back to sleep. Have had another Diazepam but not sure what to do now.
Edit 4am - Still awake. Struggling
Edit 5:30am - Still awake. Had another Diazepam an hour or so back. I am really tired but I can't sleep. Feel like shit.
Edit 7am - Still awake. This is ridiculous
Christmas love to you all
3 weeks ago