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Thursday, 15 July 2010
I am feeling really stressed about The Tempest. I have less than 2 weeks until the performances, and I just can't get the lines in my head. They just aren't sticking, and I don't know what to do. I just feel so crap about the whole thing. I'm not enjoying it, and I am just getting more and more worried about not being able to learn the lines, and letting everyone down, and being crap, to the point where it is making me really want to overdose, because if I am not alive then I won't have to learn these bloody lines. I just feel completely shit and useless, and really pressured by it all. I wish I could learn lines like I used to, but I just don't have the concentration at the moment, or the motivation. I wish I had never got involved with it.
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