Today has been a wash out. It is ridiculous how ill a cold can make you feel. I woke up feeling like crap, stupidly congested, earache from the congestion, headache from the congestion, throat hurting, general crappy feeling. Decided I wasn't really in a fit state to go off to ballet and rehearsal tonight, since I can't sing and my head feels far too fuzzy to dance, so called and made my apologies, and stayed home - I decided the rest would be more helpful. Went to see my GP to get my prescriptions - she said I should have just called and she could have done them over the phone rather than me going out in the cold when I am feeling crap. I hadn't thought of that. I have gone through a ridiculous number of tissues today, and seem to alternate between being so congested that blowing my nose is impossible, and having a nose that is dripping non stop. Neither are particularly comfortable. I am hoping that I will sleep well tonight and wake up tomorrow feeling much better. I now only have 4 days until the concert, and am starting to get concerned - when I called to say I wouldn't be able to make rehearsal I couldn't even say my bloody name clear enough for her to know who it was calling. I have been taking cold cure tablets today and yesterday, but they clearly haven't been doing any cold curing. I will buy some decongestants tomorrow and hope that they help. I am going to run out of bloody tissues at this rate.
Tomorrow I don't have to do anything, except I have an appointment to get my hair cut at 7. I haven't had my hair cut for nearly a year - it is a complete mess. At first it was because I couldn't decide whether to grow it or cut it (usual inability to make a decision), and so I did nothing, and then my hairdresser went on maternity leave and I couldn't be bothered to find another one. But then I was looking at some old pictures the other day where my hair actually had some layers (all grown out) and shape etc, and decided I really should get it cut. Plus I have split ends I noticed recently. Which isn't suprising. I think I will then have to go to Sainsburys with my mum after, as she will be going shopping then. So hopefully I will be feeling better by then. I don't like supermarkets. They make me anxious.
I am going to try and sleep now. I hope I feel better tomorrow and that this stupid bloody cold doesn't keep me awake all night. I have had a Zopiclone to try and help. I really need a decent sleep.
Will I make it through?
6 days ago