Monday, 8 February 2010
My weight has gone up again. I can't fucking deal with this. I know I need to eat less, but I don't seem able to. I am going to restart writing down everything I eat, maybe that will make a difference. I am not going to ballet tonight - there is no bloody way I am getting in a leotard and tights looking like this. I need to lose weight, fast. I want my bloody tryptophan back. I need some fucking control over something.