tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2445354648404556157.post7027865360581959562..comments2023-10-02T11:11:57.034+01:00Comments on Bippidee: Crisis team visitBippideehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10499124986641789890noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2445354648404556157.post-53786575774819331102011-02-06T02:36:46.618+00:002011-02-06T02:36:46.618+00:00I guess I need to try and be honest with the crisi...I guess I need to try and be honest with the crisis team when they call in the morning. In some ways I have felt even worse this afternoon/evening - think it is just desperation, as although I know I can call, I would be so unlikely to do that, and it's just so difficult feeling so bad. I am still just feeling like carrying on like this isn't an option, even with their support, and I am not quite sure how to say that. xxxBippideehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10499124986641789890noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2445354648404556157.post-10681013739448509172011-02-06T01:39:52.327+00:002011-02-06T01:39:52.327+00:00I know it's so hard to be honest, hon, but you...I know it's so hard to be honest, hon, but you're right you need to try - just do the best you can. <br />Oh yeah, I automatically reply that I'm OK/ fine when asked how I am, even if the truth is I'm feeling shit...ah, socialisation.<br />Yes they can break confidentiality, I didn't mean to sound as if I was telling you things you already know, but they probably shouldn't have done - I was told even if the person isn't in a state to give consent you should get their assent. Don't feel guilty about calling them if you need to talk - exactly, you wouldn't be able to if you were at the point of no return, and being close to that point is a perfectly legitimate reason for calling them. Seeking help is a sign of strength, not weakness, whatever your depression is telling you right now.<br />Glad you checked out Maytree. Yeah, it is a shame that you can only go once. If I had money I would fund similar centres all over the country where people could stay as long as they want, as many times as they want...well ok maybe there should be some limits, to stop people using it as a crutch, but more than once for sure.<br />I know it doesn't feel like it now, but you don't have to get through this alone, you don't have to make it so hard on yourself, it already is so hard. If it would help to go there now, think about it - don't worry about next time. I know depression comes back again and again, but honestly, you don't need to be thinking about that right now, try not to. It's probably pointless telling you that you can recover, or at least you can learn to manage depression, with the right support. I know that's easy to say and so hard to do, especially when you're *not* getting the support you need. I know you've been depressed for years and nothing has helped *yet* but try to believe that this will pass and yes of course it won't go away overnight, but things will get easier.<br />It may be that another antidepressant does work for you...or mood stabilisers might? It's up to you and Dr E of course, I'm not a psychiatrist.<br />(I messaged you back on Twitter, but of course you can have access to my blog, just need your e-mail - tried to get it from your contact details on here but it didn't work for some reason, message me on Twitter or e-mail is SpeechIsFree at yahoo.com. Anyone else is also welcome to do that).<br />I hope you start to feel a little better hon.butterflywingshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16873407072604417252noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2445354648404556157.post-20297274660600310292011-02-06T00:23:18.325+00:002011-02-06T00:23:18.325+00:00Sounds like you went through a lot ... hope you ar...Sounds like you went through a lot ... hope you are feeling more positive.jghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03668556255279829587noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2445354648404556157.post-54680168774598512302011-02-05T23:41:34.450+00:002011-02-05T23:41:34.450+00:00Thank you both for the support.
La reve - I very ...Thank you both for the support.<br /><br />La reve - I very much doubt they will suggest hospital, as on Monday they will ask L what she thinks about me seeing them etc, and will probably discharge me - they certainly wouldn't admit me.<br /><br />Butterfly - Calling them is hard. Very hard actually. Like part of me feels like I could really do with speaking with someone tonight, but after 9pm it is just one person on call from home, ie as a team they finish work at 9, and someone takes the work phone home and is the person who is contacted if someone needs them, and I would feel really guilty about calling and waking them up or whatever if it was just that I needed to talk rather than because I was about to do something, but if it was at the about to do something point I couldn't call. It's hard. But yes, I basically don't feel like there is a point between how I am now and acting on my thoughts, which makes it difficult to call if things get worse. I have been on anti depressants in the past, but none seemed to help really so Dr E took me off them, and hasn't ever been keen to restart me. And I know they shouldn't involve my parents without my consent, but it has happened a lot of times in the past with both the crisis team and the CMHT - they say that if you are at risk and they are concerned about your safety then they can break confidentiality, which I really hate. I don't know what to do really. I guess I need to try and be honest with them when they call in the morning, but it is so hard.<br /><br />xxxBippideehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10499124986641789890noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2445354648404556157.post-10718754730189333762011-02-05T23:32:54.437+00:002011-02-05T23:32:54.437+00:00Just wanted to let you know I read this, hon, and ...Just wanted to let you know I read this, hon, and I'm glad you're getting more support from the crisis team. Sounds like they are taking you seriously. Let them help you. You deserve it. Call them if you feel you need to at all, it's their job to be there for you. You've basically said that if you feel any worse you will do something silly, that there isn't a point between here and acting on your thoughts, so you *are* at crisis point. <br />It's so hard to explain how you feel when you feel so crappy, isn't it? It sounds like you did pretty well.<br />Meds should help - I am surprised you aren't on antidepressants already. Make sure you do get to see Dr E about that, hon.<br />I hope tomorrow goes well. There is no way the crisis team should involve your parents without your consent, exactly, you're an adult. Maybe you should specifically discuss that with them as soon as they arrive - that way you can make sure they're on side, and work with them to ensure you're not overheard.<br />Take care hon, one minute at a time.butterflywingshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16873407072604417252noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2445354648404556157.post-26685617786065796652011-02-05T20:58:14.505+00:002011-02-05T20:58:14.505+00:00I am glad they are going t contact you tommorow an...I am glad they are going t contact you tommorow and you were honest in saying you might not be able to call. I get what you meant, it seems bizare because if you wated to realy die why would you ring anyone for help? . And if you cant maybe they may suggest hospital next week which is scary but if it allows you some safety without having to be responsible for yourself, then it may be worth it. thinking of you anyhow. (hugs) La-reve xLa-revehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02255771946214951488noreply@blogger.com